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    ¹⁷ "Blessed is the man whom God corrects;
       so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty.

    ¹⁸ For he wounds, but he also binds up;
       he injures, but his hands also heal.

My dad just got into emergency room yesterday. The doctor said that he got lung infection all over his lungs. It was a shocking news for my family because my dad never been hospitalized. That is why mom has to go back to Indonesia as soon as possible; which she did, just today.

So far I’ve been praying for my dad to receive Christ as his personal savior. I’m saying this not because he’s not a Christian. My dad is a Christian since he was born. He goes to church almost every Sunday, he admits that God is exist, he believed in Jesus Christ, but he never had personal encounter w/ God. He heard a lot of testimony from my mom, me and my brothers, from the people surrounds him, but he never experience God himself.

I’ve been thinking about how my dad can receive Christ personally. I was thinking that God would give problems in my dad’s life so he can reach out to God and really surrender his life to Him. Well, the problems occurred, but my mom prayed every minute to ask God to solve the problems. So I guess my dad is always "covered" by my mom’s prayer. I was dissatisfied w/ those problems so I ask God for another way to make my dad repent, realize that he needs God and receive God as his personal savior.

My dad is currently in Papua. My mom, my 2 brothers and I are currently in US right now. Last Wednesday, my mom got a dream about my dad being sick. (I know, maybe for you dream is just a dream, nothing’s behind it; but God usually speak to my mom through dreams)

So.. on Thursday my dad called and told us that he wasn’t feeling good, but he didn’t think that it’s a big deal. On Friday he didn’t call at all. My family here wondered why but we didn’t call him either. And then on Saturday we called him and he told us that he was sick and can’t even get up from his bed. He was stuck on his bed all day long.

When I heard about this I was worried about my dad. I felt sorry for him. He was alone in Papua. My mom who always takes care of him wasn’t there. He’s home alone, sick, and stuck on his bed all day long. So last Sunday I accompanied my mom to a Lutheran church. That Lutheran church had Holy Communion on every Sunday. At the time my mom and I about to do the Holy Communion, I whispered my mom. I told her to pray for my dad so God will heal my dad by God’s stripes and blood through the Holy Communion. When I prayed for my dad’s sickness, I was reminded that this is the time where my dad can have personal encounter w/ God and finally receive God as his personal savior.

On the next day (Monday), I received a phone call telling that my dad got into ER. It was shocking. But I believe that God has a plan behind it.

I don’t doubt God to heal my dad’s sickness. It is very easy for God to do it. God can heal my dad in a blink of eye. He can do it anytime w/ His miraculous work.

But I just don’t want my dad to miss the point behind this problem. I don’t want my dad to miss this chance to experience God personally. I want my dad to receive Christ through this sickness. I want my dad to have personal encounter with God and live for Him. Knowing God, walking w/ Him, and live for Him is a greatest treasure in my life. I want my dad to have it too.

So for those of you who read my blog, please pray for my dad to repent, receive and experience Christ personally. Thank you for your support. God bless you all..

Romans 5:1-11

¹Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we^[a]have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, ²through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we^[b] rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. ³Not only so, but we^[c] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; ⁴perseverance, character; and character, hope. ⁵And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

    ⁶You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. ⁷Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. ⁸But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

    ⁹Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him! ¹⁰For if, when we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! ¹¹Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.

What an amazing God. I luv U, Lord

There are some things in my life that I did that’s not according to God’s word or God’s will or pretty much I didn’t do it with God’s persmission lah. Tabrak2 doank. But yea, I just wanna share that our God is very patient toward his kids and also very faithful.

Lately, i gotta lil problem in my workplace. It’s about my integrity. In that case I had lie to my boss. I lied about the things that will be better if my boss doesn’t know. I feel bad ’bout it. I’m screwed. I can’t tell the truth to my boss and I can’t let myself fool her all the time. I want to tell her the truth, but I want it to be at the right time which is not now. I really made a mess. So that week I’m so confused, didn’t know what to do. I also felt bad to God that i had lie, I didn’t know what to ask Him. I just simply asked for forgiveness and pleaded him to clean my mess. I know that this is kind of selfish. But this is the thing that a child can do when they face a problem that is beyond his/her control which is ask help from his/her parents.

I remember when I was a kid whenever I made a mess my dad’s always willing to help me to "clean" or solve it. Yea for example kyk waktu gw make’ duit bokap ga kira2. Make duit bokap yg harusnya buat keperluan malah dipake buat yang engga2. Bokap mang marah krn gw salah, terlalu royal, dst cuma tetep aja bokap gw yg cinta ma gw tetep cover the money that i had misused donk, hehe.

Well, basically I asked God to help me to "clean the mess" or solve the problem that is not supporting my lie/inequities. And He did, he somehow made me got out from the problem in the right & fair way. I’m sooo thankful that I have a dad like HIM. Whenever I need help, no matter how big the mess that I did, His  hands is not too short to help me. His heart is always full of forgiveness. I’m so blessed by it.

I received an email from my old middle school friend in Indonesia. He’s my lil brother’s classmate. This is what he said on Friday, October 28, 2005 2:35 PM,

"Thanks 4 the offering to join in ur new weblog… isn’t it? but there’s something opinion 4 u to considerate >> what’s ur goal to make it? r u trying to get a popularity? or maybe u r trying to find someone to be ur couple, i mean boyfriend gitchu…? he..he..he..".

At the first time I read it I was like, "Whaaaat?%#$(&@#^(*&^????". Maaan.. I can’t believe people would think like that. Making a blog to get popularity, or trying to get attention from the guys.. HAUAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.. Yang bener ajah maazzz… Well what he said it might be true. Some people might do it for that, but not me with this blog though. I’m actually not the kind of person who likes to write or making a website about me that can be seen or read by others. Writing this blog is also takes time. Like right now, I’ve received his email on October, but I have to wait ’till my final’s over to respond it here. I think I rather study than doing this though.

Well if you want to read this blog, it means you care about me. And if you Don’T want to read it, you know what??         I Don’T CaRe!!

Anyway..

There is one thing that encourages me to make this blog.

As a Christian, I believe that my God is aLiVe. In fact, my days are full of testimonials about God’s goodness, blessings, grace, protection, and all of His aWeSoMe works in my life. I really blessed by it. I like to share to you guys about some of His goodness in my life through this blog. So my goal is.. I want my stories/testimonials can bless you as the reader too. I hope it can maximize your faith, give you idea about what to do when you face the same thing , maybe get the bible verses from it, or whatever else lah.

I’m also the kind of person who hardly involve in long distance relationships with friends or family (ask Grace & Ruth if u don’t believe). So instead of email all of my friend one by one to tell them about what am I doing right now, I rather make this blog. That way if they want to know the “updates” bout me, they can just open this blog.

O yea, I also get another question from the same unique, funny, interesting, friend from Indonesia. This is what he said,

“oya, whom picture that attached in ur weblog? don’t try to manipulate ur face okay…”

HAUAHAHAAHAHA.. This question and comment are really CRACKS me Up. Hihihihi..

Ok then, you know what??     I AM FOTOGENIC.

Stop arguing bout my pic, and do not get fooled by it.

Peace ouT

I actually don’t like to start my story with the bad one, but i don’t wanna lie either so.. Sorry guys, I just like to share it. (anyway, please excuse my english grammar, hehe)

Well, yea, as some of you already know that i got into two car accident this summer. At the first one, it was my fault i think. I did a U-turn on a hill that makes another car hit me. That night the police said that it was the other car’s driver’s fault, but three days later i got a ticket which says that i’m the cause of the accident. This ticket, the first traffic ticket that I ever got, become my nightmare througout the summer. I have to deal with the police, hospital, and car insurance. At the second car accident I’m kindda glad that i’m not the driver. I was the passenger. Our car got hit by another car again and it was our driver’s fault though, but still, I got trauma from this accidents.

I’m sure when God allow the bad things to happen, He’ll always has purpose behind it.  Before the accident happened, we got some family problems that caused by my dad. He was in the car at that time too. Somehow by God’s work, this accident solved this problems and unite our family again.

Before these problems happened, I wasn’t really close to God. I came to church every Sunday, came to prayer meeting and saturday music practice, pray almost every night, read bible , but I only did those as a religious things. I didn’t meant to do it because I feel like i really need and long to see Him. But when the problems came, I suddenly change those religious habbit. I did those because I want to do it for Him, and because I’m desperate to get His help too, of course hehe. Well, yea, those problems drew me closer to God. I’m so thankful that God allow this problems happened in my life.

Last night, something bad happen in my house. I can’t really tell u guys about this but this thing is kindda affect my future. I got sooo scared from what happened last night. I know it’s not my fault but I got trauma from this thing again. I feel like I don’t want to go home anymore. My mom, dad, and both of my little brothers weren’t scared. They’re trying to comfort me; even my dad who worries a lot. The problems keep on poping up in my mind anytime i remember about it until my mom give me a bunch of verse in the bible that tells about fear.  She told me to read Psalm 31:20, Psalm 27, 1John 4:18, Isa 41:10. I got really touched from those verse, especially by Psalm 27, and yes I learn to put my trust in Him and surrender to Him wholeheartedly. I’m not scared anymore. 

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